Well its been a few since I last wrote a blog, so I thought I would write something down...so grab a comfy chair, grab you something good to drink, maybe a few kleenexes, its blog time.
"If Heaven"
If heaven was an hour it would be twilight,
When the fireflies started their dancing on the lawn
Suppers on the stove and momma's laughing
and everybody's working day is done
Oh on a summer day in 1985
And everything I wanted was out there waiting
Everyone I loved is still alive
Don't cry a tear for me now baby,
There comes a time that we all must say good bye
And if that's what heavens made of,
you know I aint afraid to die
If Heaven was a pie it would be cherry,
So cool and sweet and heavy on the tongue,
Just one bite would satisfy your hunger
There would always be enough for everyone
That would take this weary traveler around the bend
If heaven was a tear it would my last one,
you'd be in my arms again
Don't cry a tear for me now baby,
There comes a time that we all must say good bye
And if that's what heavens made up,
you know I aint afraid to die
Everytime I listen to this song I beging to think about life and where its taken me. The accomplishments and the disappointments as well. The reason why things happen...and the plan that God has paved out for me. Now most would say Im a religious man or maybe even a philosopher. I don't know about all of that...but I will say that I know God has a reason for the things that have happened in my life. This song speaks of what Heaven might be like when we die. I myself would rather die young doing something for man kind, mainly because I know that my life and death would not go in vain.
Rather or not you have a religion or that you even believe in God, you have to understand that this song speaks so much more. We all must be able to say good bye to our loved ones. It is probably one of the hardest things ever to do . I know when I said Good Bye to my grandmother for the last time, I couldn't bare the thought that I would never see her again. This song has helped me understand that I will get to see her again.
For me...If heaven was a year...it would have to be 98-99 when I was called into my priesthood office, and I stood with my Grandparents at a conference for my church...accepting my priesthood call.
That was one of my greatest accomplishments. My Grandma didn't get to see me be confirmed into my priesthood, her illness kept her home, and she couldn't really get out of bed unfortunately. Even though she wasn't there in person that day she was there in spirit.
I still remember the last thing that my grandma said to me when I visited her in the hospital right before i left for my sophmore year of college. We were all sitting in the hospital room, just talking about some of my classes that I would be taking, and talking about my new shoes that I bought before school, and I asked her if she would be making it to my graduation, I of course knew that she didn't have much time left, but she answered yes she would be there. Grandma, Grandpa, and Mom, and myself all began to cry, because we all knew the seriousness of what was going on. Then my Grandma said sorry for crying...but of course, there was no reason to be sorry about it. My Grandpa said she was a big girl, she can cry if she wanted too. It was getting to close to visiting time to be over with and the nurse came over to let us know...so I went over to my grandma's bedside and buried my face into her hands...and she said..."Don't ever forget where youe come from. You make me very proud. I don't want you to ever forget me."
Every cpl of months I visit her grave site and I just sit there and talk to her. Telling her whats on my mind. I get a warm fuzzy feeling when I do this because I know she's there listening to me.
Now we all have people we cherish. I most definitely cherish my family and friends...evne though my family get on my nerves...a lot...I will do anything for them.
My friends are the greatest people ever. You can see me and my best friend in my newest display picture...he is the definition of a brother. Through out life we're lucky enough to find anyone who will be there for you no matter what...and he is that guy.
So Im done with blogging for now, I've cried enough. This song makes me tear up like a bawling baby. I hope you read it and learn that...hey...just getting through life isn't enough...you've got to live it. I know that now, and I'm doing just that. Living it up. Learning from my mistakes...and taking any challanges head on.
This is Pease signing off...Good Afternoon All.
1 comment:
Rock on, Josh. Great post, man. I got songs like that, too, and I remember friends and family that ain't around anymore, too. It's good to remember them.
Keep posting!
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